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She picked up a rock and threw it out over the water. 

That's forcing away a foundation.

The sky was hazy and the sun was getting hotter.

Now all's left is a cheap imitation. 

The ripples swallowed it whole.

Watch the story unfold.

hi. 

"hey, what's up?"

nothing. wanna chill?

"i've got pl[ch]a[i]ns for the rest of the weekend."

oh, ok.

"listen, i still want to [...]"

of course.

"you alright?"

yeah. it's cool.  

"I think I need a sunrise

I'm tired of the sunset,

I hear it's nice in the summer,

And snow would be nice,

Oh yeah,

You don't know me

And you don't even care." --"Boston" by Augustana 

Imagine what it would be like to have everyone feel cool with you all the time. 

To not have to worry.

To  know they're being mature. Even when you're not there. 

Imagine.

This coming up week will be uber-stressful. Stats exam on Tuesday, APUSH exam on Thursday, AP Language exam the following Wednesday (?) and Spanish II exam Friday. Oh dear. 

Take these words that I can't say,

They have no power, and no strength. 

Take these thoughts that I can't break,

Bend them to your will. 

Because I,

I would fall to pieces

I should shatter, if you didn't reach me. 

I feel nothing right now. It's weird. I have nothing to say. It sucks. 

A Little Longer

I don't know why I'm writing a blog. I have tons of homework and studying I could be doing at 11:28 p.m. So why am I wasting my time writing a blog? 

Because it keeps me sane, that's why. 

Classes are hard. My AP classes are about to overtake me. Especially US History and Stats. Both of my teachers told the class we were going to fail straight up. How encouraging. I am scared of the history exam. I really think this might be the first time in my life where I will fail a major test. 

Work has improved, I am happy to say. I wish I did not work this weekend, because I am losing valuable, precious study time, but I can't change it, so I just have to find the time to study around it. That's what everything is all about anyways. Working around things; climbing over, skirting, digging beneath, flying through. What gets you around, right? 

The fast is good for me. I rely on God heavily. I am building trust. 

It's hard to believe school is almost over and I'll be a senior. A senior? Give me kindergarten or give me college. Not another year of high school, please. I sound like that stupid Thomas man from colonial history, foolishly yelling "Give me liberty or give me death!" The Federalist's didn't like him anyways. Isn't it funny how that's a famous quote now? And the guy who said it was considered a lunatic at the time. 

It's grueling, it is. But I'm thankful for it. How will I be refined without going through the fire? 

My friends-- I pray for you. I love you. Truly and honestly. You are important to me. Please don't be alone in yourselves, some of you. Others, I pray for your joy. All of you, I thank God for. These are difficult times in our lives, that's an obvious duh statement. So let's come together.