Because it keeps me sane, that's why.
Classes are hard. My AP classes are about to overtake me. Especially US History and Stats. Both of my teachers told the class we were going to fail straight up. How encouraging. I am scared of the history exam. I really think this might be the first time in my life where I will fail a major test.
Work has improved, I am happy to say. I wish I did not work this weekend, because I am losing valuable, precious study time, but I can't change it, so I just have to find the time to study around it. That's what everything is all about anyways. Working around things; climbing over, skirting, digging beneath, flying through. What gets you around, right?
The fast is good for me. I rely on God heavily. I am building trust.
It's hard to believe school is almost over and I'll be a senior. A senior? Give me kindergarten or give me college. Not another year of high school, please. I sound like that stupid Thomas man from colonial history, foolishly yelling "Give me liberty or give me death!" The Federalist's didn't like him anyways. Isn't it funny how that's a famous quote now? And the guy who said it was considered a lunatic at the time.
It's grueling, it is. But I'm thankful for it. How will I be refined without going through the fire?
My friends-- I pray for you. I love you. Truly and honestly. You are important to me. Please don't be alone in yourselves, some of you. Others, I pray for your joy. All of you, I thank God for. These are difficult times in our lives, that's an obvious duh statement. So let's come together.
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Hey Beautiful!
long time no talk "(
But I don't know...I guess in some small light I understand half why. But oh well on the other half "(
I love you much and I am I constantly praying for you. Words can't express how much you have helped me in my life. And I feel I never say thank you enough. You are amazing. And God is going to use you in amazing ways. I'm just glad I've gotten to know you. Love you with all my heart and pray all is well and peaceful. You deserve it!
DON'T STRESS YOURSELF OUT. Just draw closer and closer to God. And remember thats the only thing that is TRULY important in life. Because without it. Without Him and His love. You have nothing. And you, you deserve it all.
xoxo!
Jen
"That's what everything is all about anyways. Working around things; climbing over, skirting, digging beneath, flying through. What gets you around, right?"
I'd say, "preach preachAAAA" but I'd feel dumb. I hint the sarcasm, if that's what you meant, haha.
And I agree. I do not want highschool anymore. Ever. Never ever ever. One more year. Yeah, one more. I just don't like the structure of it - I feel caged at times. I should be embracing it, but I just want to run from it. I guess it shows my immaturity, lol. I guess I'm ready for college more than I thought. When I went to Liberty I wasn't really nervous, I got to that point as it came nearer and nearer for us to meet our people because everyone around me was freaking out, but before that I was totally cool. It was like I was ready. Mabye not ready to find my way around everywhere, haha, I'm sure I'll get lost no matter where I go. But I was ready for the change - sure classes still weren't that fun, but I loved the freedom of it.
Plus, I've always loved to travel. I was almost never at my own house when I was little. Always over at my grandmas or anywhere else I could go. Not because I didn't love my family, lol, I just love the excitment of going somewhere new.
Lol, I don't know why I shared that tid-bit, but I guess it just shows my bird-like wings feeling cramped in this place I'm at itching to be free. Though, I'm sure there is a way for them to be free where I'm at and not to wait to open them. Homework is deffinitly one of the things that is keeping them from flying, though.
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