All of these are friendships, nothing more.
2. I am having trouble with you. I don't know where you're coming from or what you want. You, too, are quiet. I want it badly. I am pushing forward but I don't see your boat coming in yet. I keep thinking I see it, but then it slips away.
3. I like you, I have no problems with you. We are chill and I am thankful for that.
4. You, as well, are thankfully firmly steady with me. We go back farther than the others, perhaps? I wish you were around more often.
5. You are the sky with me. Most of the time it is blue skies and seventy-five, but it's like Florida and these berserk rain storms hit. Idk how much of a roller coaster I can take. But you can't have a world without a sky, so.
6. I need more time with you. I enjoy you very much. I am not good enough for you. Sheesh, you are practically perfect. I am sorry about earlier. But that was not the time nor place.
7. Oh, you would have no problem solving issue with me. You like to say it and I'm glad for that. If we are/were ever not chill, you hide it incredibly well. But that's not your style. Thank goodness.
8. You need to be closer. I think we could have awesome conversation. You arouse my curiosity. I see you as a half-moon, because I only see the bright shiny part, but I know there has to be the other half somewhere.
9. Lauren, why must you live so far away? My sister, my friend, my closest companion, I need you to be here. I hope to see you this summer so badly. You always understand. I don't even need to say anything, but you know.
10. Mmm, I don't know how to say this. I appreciate you greatly. I am not as good a friend to you as you are to me and I am sorry. So sorry. Sorry for snapping. But I can't lean on something that isn't whole yet itself.
11. You need to be closer as well. I miss your attitude and sarcasm and little joys and talking. Not that it could be again, ever. I am glad for technology. I like you, of course, and have no problems that I know of. Not that it's possible yet, being younger.
12. I need You. You always listen, always forgive, always want to hang out. I could spend every second of every day with you if I wanted, so why don't I? You love me unconditionally... why do I use You as a last resort? Me and You are on and off, I play with fake and real with You and I hate myself for it. I will change this. I will change this.
(Don't think. Don't assume. Don't even try.)
7 comments:
Your disclaimer is like the disclaimer in Huck Finn. Why would you post this if you didn't want people to try? Why would Mark Twain write his disclaimer if he didn't want people to notice the dialect changes and moral lessons?
It came out less warm than I meant it. I was having a hard enough time making it into more than sentence fragments; you know me. :)
I 2nd Rachel.
except for the smart literature reference.
I texted you, you didn't text me back.
-peace
:/ If I had the words, I'd say them. Like, the words to let you know that you are amazing, and to see you sad makes the room a little more darker. It sucked to see you quiet tonight and to not know what to say or if I should go up to you to talk. I want to be a better friend to you. I do.
I 3rd Rachel.
You are an amazing person and you think beautifully. I am going to message you ASAP.
can i guess what number i am? hehehehe....oh i do know...yep, i'm that good, and i've got some ideas on who the numbers are for other people...me, you. we should talk about it :)
I give up :(
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