Easier Than Love

"Everyone's a lost romantic

Since our love became a kissing show

Everyone's a Casanova

Come and pass me the mistletoe,

Everyone's been scared to death

Of dying here alone,

Alone."

--Switchfoot 

I'm not looking for some shallow sort of teenage love. I'm not looking for eternal happiness. I'm not looking for some emotional high that will keep me "happy" for a little while until the newness wears off. I'm looking for a deep, solid friendship that blossoms into a relationship. I use to imagine myself riding off in a blaze of romance into some tropical horizon, but now I laugh about it whenever that fantasy comes to mind. I want someone who I can be real with. I want someone that I can talk to and express myself to without them saying that I'm weird or that I need to quit thinking so much. I want someone to laugh with. Someone who will be a friend to me before anything else. Someone who is smart, who will challenge me and maybe even make me mad once in a while. I'm not that "love-at-first-sight" kind of girl. I don't care much about looks (though I wouldn't complain if they're attractive). I don't care what they do with their hair, or how they dress, or what school they go to. I care about whether or not they love the Lord with all their soul, mind, and strength. I care about the fact that they put Him and their family first place in their life. I care about whether or not this person plans to stick around or be here for a season, ready to take off once things get old. 

I'm not looking for someone to go to the movies with every weekend, nor someone to cling to and hope they can fix my life. I know that people aren't perfect. I know that no one but God could ever truly make me happy. But I have standards and I won't settle for anything less. 

I don't really know where this came from tonight, haha, but it's whatever.