If I knew, I wouldn't wonder.

A park. Close up of two birds chasing each other through the trees and into the sky. Camera pulls back enough to catch characters in conversation as they walk over the bridge.

"Man. Catch that sunset." Wind tugs her hair and she smiles. The air is getting cool enough to have her put on her jacket.

"Yeah. It's kind of chilly."

Comfortable. "I can't wait until the nights start to get warm again. Don't sunsets and summer just go together?" Her hands swing by her side, fingers tapping out a rhythm on her legs as they walk. 

"Mhm. Summer is pretty amazing." 

She glances at her companion, who is relaxed and doesn't seem to notice her tangible pleasure. "Look! The first star. Oh, let's make a wish!" She closes her eyes and tenses herself, wishing. She hears her friend laugh. 

"You would say that." 

She opens her eyes. "Of course I would. What did you wish for?" [Excited]

"For it to start getting warmer, haha. And that summer would come a lot faster. You?"

Pauses, then shrugs. "Pretty much the same, I guess." Slowly pulls up hands into coat pockets.

Camera continues to draw out and to the left, leaving the two to continue towards their parked cars. After saying goodbye, two engines come to life, and the vehicles travel off in separate direction. The sun is the last to leave, and darkness reigns.  

When The Sun Rises

Today when I opened my eyes

I could see all of the Lord's delight

In the Sunshine

In the warm and golden light. 

Today when I opened my ears

I clung to all the birdsong I could hear

In the Sunshine

Every note came in so clear.

Today when I opened my mind

To all the lovely thoughts I could find

In the Sunshine

I noticed pain and beauty intertwined.

Today when I opened my soul

I let God take me to the overflow

In the Sunshine

It's gonna be ok, yeah I know. 

(please note that "Sunshine" does not refer to the actual sun...)

:)

The Hand That Holds The World

It's morning.

Today is going to be a good day. 

I work from 12-4. Then, hopefully, I will be able to hang out with friends and simply chill. 

At one point I really believed that saying "the ends justify the means." But now I don't think it's true. If you kill yourself to get to the end, you're already dead by the end, so you don't get to enjoy it, right? Life needs balance. It's way too fragile to put all the stress on one end of the beam with the result lifted high on the other end, because at some point the pressure on the midpoint is going to snap, the the result will come falling down as a result of the weight of the stress. I don't know if that makes sense to you, but to me, it does. I have to imagine this see-saw in my head though, haha. 

Another thing I need to work on is a quiet time. Quiet times are like oxygen in this big fishie tank of life. :)

Finally, God has opened my eyes to see that goals are important, and with that comes good planning. I'm working myself for nothing if I am not trying to accomplish something. So here is list of some short and long term goals that I am really going to set my sights on, and who knows? Perhaps God has placed these desires in my heart and will find favor with me and make them into reality.

Short term goals:

1. Develop a solid quiet time.

2. Pass APUSH. I have a 66% right now, but I'm working it. 

3. Learn the proper way to study and take notes.

4. Start stretching and running since the doc let me off all restrictions.

5. Get involved in a church ministry again.

Mid-term goals:

1. Decide where I'm going to college (either Liberty, Elon, or a state school in NC, WI, or MN).

2. Study and get a good score on the March SAT, and take it over and over again.

3. Get a lot of scholarships.

4. Save up money for college, a car, a trip home this summer, camp, insurance, and AP tests.

5. Be in an ultra-personal, life-changing relationship with God.

Long-term goals:

1. Get into a good college and focus in on a major pleasing to God's will. 

2. Become a physical therapist/teacher/psychologist/astronomer/missionary/motivational speaker.

3. Travel the world.

4. Get married and have kids.

5. Be able to say that my life counted for something....

...by making it count right now.